Forks
I do not know my path. The way forward is unclear, covered by the fog of life. I have struggled to see but time has not been good to me. The weight of my past is weighing heavily on me today. I often wonder how and if I can change my tomorrow. The future is never quite what we imagined it would be. As I look back I often wonder where did things go so wrong. The present seems so foreign yet here we are. We face our day tall and with dignity. Tomorrow will come ready or not. Each path along the way is as different as the next. Today I pray for the sight to see, to know which is best for me.
Casting Crowns has a song called, Praise You In This Storm. In the song it describes the storm raging on and struggling to hear the Holy Spirit. Every day is a struggle for me now to face what I don’t have, long for the things I had, and focus on where to go from here. Facing divorce when it wasn’t your choice is hard. Facing the loss of friends in the middle of the storm is hard. Even though the fire’s hot, I know the tempered sword that will be removed. I know today that the Lord is with me as I fight my daily struggle. Though my heart is torn in many directions, I know the healing power of Jesus lives in me, and as I lift my eyes to the Lord, I know peace will come. I cannot say my storm will end soon, but I know that one day the sun will part the clouds and the sunny meadow will be mine. No matter where I am I know the Lord is, no matter what I face, the Lord is by my side giving me the courage to wake up and face another day.
Despite so much pain, so much suffering, I say bless the Lord because the Lord has blessed me. No matter all the struggles that have come I trust in the Lord with all my might. There are 10,000 reasons to love, to cherish the Lord because the Angels from on high watch over me. When I lay my head down to rest I feel the Holy Spirit comforting me. When I wake in the morning, I feel the love of the many blessings in my life. In my sorrow I pray to the Lord and just like the days of old I sing Hosanna in the highest because the Lord comforts the weary. I may not know which way to go, but the Lord has saved my soul. Romans 4:20-22“20 No unbelief made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, 21 fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. 22 That is why his faith was “counted to him as righteousness.”The struggle day to day is not one for my soul, it’s for the world of Man, and because I know my soul is secured in the faith of God, I know that tomorrow is another day, and then after will be another, and the day after that, and one day my worldly struggle will be over. Freedom was bought for me, and when I step back looking at the big picture, this struggle is nothing in the grand scheme of life.
No matter where I am today, or tomorrow, the truth hasn’t changed, and I know the blood of Jesus saves me. It amazes me how so many ask me how I can praise Jesus in these times of struggles. It amazes me how many people don’t know or accept the power of the Lord. Perhaps it’s because I’ve seen with my own eyes the healing power, to holy power of the spirit. The day’s may be covered in fog, but we don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but my God was on the throne yesterday, today, and will be tomorrow. When I don’t know which way to go, I take a step back and praise my King. I take a step back and look at who I am now verses who I was yesterday. I have grown in my walk, and I know that it’s the Lord that’s seen me through, and who’s saved me from myself. The Lord has blessed me with gifts, and I use them to now just reach others with the word of the Lord, but to remind myself why I fight. No matter the questions that I face today, I have to remember that a part of me died, and now I breathe because of my savior. I saw grace and in my struggles I know I am being pulled through. I’m alive and I live with the light of God inside me. Psalm 71:20“20 You who have made me see many troubles and calamities will revive me again; from the depths of the earth you will bring me up again.”While I have pain I’m alive, and while I’m broken, Jesus isn’t done with me. He’s still healing my heart. I’m alive, and every step I take, I will close my eyes, and allow the Holy, Holy Lord to guide me into tomorrow. James 1:5“5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.”I will walk away leaving a part of me behind, and while some days I will miss the old me, the broken shall be mended by the blood of the Lord, and a new me exists in his place. I’m alive, and no fork in the road will stop me from pursuing my Lord, my King.
The Arrow Preacher 