God won’t leave – The Arrow Preacher

God Won’t Leave

I have the word of God almighty, assurance and a promise to have and to hold. My God won’t ever leave, no matter my faults, my God will stay right next to me, always and today. I look ahead till tomorrow and know, people will leave, but God says it isn’t so. I shall never leave you says the Lord, and have faith always. How wonderful to know that in my deepest pain a promise I can hold.

I try so hard for people to care, I try so hard for people to see. I don’t know why, and maybe I never will, but people just leave. The struggle is real, an so are the consequences. I’m thankful though for God on high, who watches over me protecting me from harm. Deuteronomy 31:8 (NKJV)8 “And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.”

Sometimes in life we get busy and it’s understandable. Sometimes we need some time away, and a chance to review our life. Sometimes life gets in the way and all we can do is our best. I’ve been putting a lot of thought in my life and have found myself grateful that no matter how stressful life gets, how many people choose to leave, how little people care, God’s son Jesus Christ is with me always. The nature of God is an interesting one, and by that I mean, how does something you cannot see, and often feel make you feel better? While I can’t explain the feeling, I can say, knowing that God loves me so much that Jesus died on the cross for my sins, for my personal salvation, I know that my hope is not of this world, but of the next. I know that because God has never given up on me in all my shortcomings, my failures, God’s son Jesus Christ is beyond patient, beyond empathetic, that Jesus Christ is pure love, in a way we can sparsely understand. The pain I’ve felt over the last…. 30 some years as people I’ve cared about have left, I have found myself in the last couple years feeling jaded. I have found myself feeling angry, and bitter towards peoples selfishness, peoples lack of empathy towards others feelings from their own actions. I have been on bended knee seeking answers, trying to understand the purpose, looking for my own path, and while some things have been revealed to me, others have yet to flourish. The stress mounts as school has taken a slight turn in the wrong direction, relationships have failed at an alarming rate, and I have failed to find and manage my own stress release. Many may have noticed I have not posted in a few days, and that was not intentional, and sadly, even as life has gotten in the way I feel awful for missing so many days. Life has a way of sneaking up on you, and before you know it the day is gone. Thankfully Jesus knows our hearts, knows our pain, and no matter how the day slips by us, Jesus knows, and is there for us always.

God Won’t Leave

I wrote to you and you said stuff too. I fell for your lies and you left me feeling like a fool. How could I have not seen it earlier, instead I had to feel. You said you cared but then you were gone. How can someone care then disappear? I believed you and gave you my attention my ear as you lifted me up and told me a beautiful lie. I listened to you and fell for the line that wasn’t true at all. How often have I fallen for the same lie over and over in my life? The truth is sometimes hard to swallow, as I have now been smacked in the face with, you didn’t care about me at all, just about yourself and as soon as I didn’t give you a certain feeling, you left. How long I have looked for something real, someone truthful, and faithful, but have come up empty handed. Thankful I am that God doesn’t leave me the first time I don’t live up to his expectations. Thankful God’s grace and love are bigger then anything I could ever imagine. I am thankful that the God who created the universe loves me enough to lend me His ear, hold me when I’m sad, and never leaves me.

Isaiah 41:10 (NASB) ‘Do not fear, for I am with you; Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’” God’s grace is something amazing and we often overlook it because we are too busy to count the blessings we have. I have had an all out yelling match with God, but I know He’s still there. He can take my faults and love me just as I am. As I watch one by one the majority of new people I have met have left and have done so without a word with their exit. God is my hero and knowing God won’t leave or forsake me gives me strength to carry on past the hurt.

I am a person, and I feel but it seems my feelings don’t matter much to the majority of people I have in my life. Thankfully God hears my heart and knows my feelings. I may not always get what I want, but God doesn’t set out to hurt me like other people do. People have forgotten the feelings of others, and it’s a sad day when close friends no longer show they care. Watching as people lie, and say whatever they want to try and get something is heart breaking. God though, doesn’t have to lie to get anything from us. Joshua 1:9“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Dealing with the emotional fall out from so much disappointment, it’s hard to understand how this happens, but God will strengthen me, and I will watch as the purging wildfire continue to rages on in my life.